A New Season
With 20 years of experience and a master’s degree, I tried to take it in stride when my company told me of a corporate downsizing, eliminating my position…
…and that of nearly all my colleagues.
As an assistant vice president of a national company, I figured I would suffer little downtime before finding another comparable position. In six years I had been promoted twice and was a top performer in my department, garnering numerous awards and recognition.
God had other plans.
For eighteen months, I sent countless resumes and made more revisions to it than I can remember, hoping to structure it just so in order to catch the right person’s attention. I’ve had interviews that led to second interviews, which led to nowhere. I even considered hiring a headhunter, but I didn’t because they wanted to know the list of places where I was willing to relocate, which I am not willing to do.
So, to try to help provide for our family, I’ve found supplemental income with contract work, offering my expertise to a few clients who needed help, but couldn’t afford to hire for a full time position.
Every time I took on a new project or client, I felt a spark that I hadn’t felt in a long time. But I didn’t realize that the spark was from God, telling me “stay with this.”
After battling a multitude of demons – wondering if I wasn’t hiring material, thinking maybe I am too old, or maybe that I was overqualified, or even listening when the enemy whispered, you just aren’t good enough. All damaging thoughts that seeped into my heart and mind during this extended period of unemployment…
…taking a toll on my self-worth.
I had to learn to recognize God’s voice. All my plotting, prepping, searching and revising was taking up so much of my time, I didn’t have time to listen when God was whispering His plan for this season of my life:
- He whispered it when my then 11-year-old son told me how much he liked it when I came to pick him up from baseball practice
- He whispered it in the smile on my daughter’s face when I volunteered in her classroom every week
- He whispered it in thank you notes from school children after spending several months helping them
- He whispered it by sending just the right client or project at the right time to meet our needs
A recent session with a life coach opened my eyes to what God was speaking all along. The prayers for a new “full-time” job were being answered with “not now.” The answer was, “focus your attention on your family, and I’ll fill in the gaps through your consulting work.” He made it so clear, it was hard to look back and see all the places where He was reaching out and I was reaching elsewhere.
My lesson was that God is using this time in life to reconnect me with my children, my husband and friends/family who need my attention. No paycheck could or should ever replace those moments. He is holding my hand through all of this. When we learn to place all our trust in Him, we can see the beauty in His perfect plan.
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